We were in your car
I was giddy. Sometimes I get that way.
But rarely do I show that side to anyone
And you were not anyone
You were the one
But at that moment
You were the one on the phone
Your stepfather's on the other end
I can hear him
The man that raised you
Long after the other one accepted another offer
So I sat there quietly
But you know me
You know me
I get real fidgety
Or at least I did back then
It's funny how all my nervousness left
when you did
I guess you took it
Or perhaps its just another petty theft to blame on cupid
Now back to me being stupid
And you're looking out the driver's side
You've turned a bit and there's a little bit of your back exposed to me
And I can't help but be giddy
I start tapping you at your side
playfully at your side
I even turned the radio down so you didn't have to go outside
I am being quiet
Just tapping you playfully
Playfully on your side
Because I am on your side
While at your side
Your passenger side
You turned to face me
And the look on your face debased me
It was anything but happy
I knew that I was irritating you
Me silently interrupting you two
Because you were on the phone
It's rude to talk while someone is on the phone
And I'm not rude
Call me anything you wish
But you can never call me that
I was interrupting
But in my subtle way
There was something I wanted to say
I was trying to tell you
Giddy me was happy me
For I was happilly
Playfully at your side
I'd consider it a point of pride
That I hadn't known such happiness
We didn't grow up the same
At that time I didn't trust giddy
So I rarely allowed myself to be
But we're in the parking lot
Minutes away from shopping for Thanksgiving
Usually you go back home this late in the year
I don't get those holidays
Maybe I haven't earned the right to even have them
But I got this one
So I was giddy
Playfully at your side
Poking you in your side
Nothing sharp, I'm gentle with you
Always
So very gentle with you
I'm just letting you know that I'm happy you're here
I'm happy you forgave me
I'm happy you love me
Happy that this is happening
Hey? Guess I do believe in meant to be
But that look is killing me
That look says so much
You don't like me poking you in your side
Gently or otherwise
That look says stop
And I do
Because those are words to honor
Even when they go unspoken
I read you like my favorite book
Battered and falling apart
Hey just like me
Eventually, it was just me
So I stop
But you don't
Your blue eyes flash with something that feels a lot like anger
And I don't know why
Those eyes my god those eyes and mine would lock when we spent our time how we spent our time
But now those eye
Those eye and mine
See each other differently this time
Irritation is welcome
I am poking you in your side
Playfully at your side
But you don't want this poking to continue
And I have stopped
You have not
You feel this need to do something
I feel you feel it too
I can read you too, I'm your Life of Pi
You gave into the part of you that still hates
me
And I see my girl flash before my mind
I see her disappear down the line
Something changed in that car that day
I started to lose you and you lost me
Even though there's still months left
This romance of ours reached
a slow death
And that's left is agony
In agony I find
And as it lays dying
I remember
All those nights we spoke
When we spoke of your father
Speaking to your mother with his hands
How his father told him that he needed to put her in her place
I often wonder
I often wonder why
You tried to put me in mine